Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Update
Well Tim and I should be living together soon, we just have masses of stuff on both sides money wise etc to sort out, he has the extra point of his physical health and sadly my mental health still isnt 100%, but I hope that we will help each other out.
He told me he may not want a BF after a few months and needs some space, but I hope he only thinks that out of stress, given that last week he said he loved me and changed totally, to a nice guy! LOL
We shall see
x
He told me he may not want a BF after a few months and needs some space, but I hope he only thinks that out of stress, given that last week he said he loved me and changed totally, to a nice guy! LOL
We shall see
x
Monday, January 08, 2007
Catch Up
Well since yesterday I am 26, hurrah.
Briefly, got a small bonus at work, £500, for the whole prior to Xmas.
Xmas I spent at my mums, nice to see family, but cut short to spend time with Tim, who had been in hospital with malnutrition, saw him the first night then he fell out with me new year as my presents for him were wrong, honest mistake but he was cruel and made me take things back, considering I didn't have to buy a thing, its about whats from the heart, and made a mistake with shops.... nevermind hey.
New Year, he acted like I was a stranger and says he cant show feelings in public, yet doesnt show them in private either, and was happy enough to dirty dance with others and even go as far as talking about having sex with a guy he just met.....
Birthday, night before when I planned to go out, everyone cancelled on me, so was just me and Tim, he didnt want to go out, then changed his mind, so Dean came out, however I misjudged what I was doing, and collapsed in my front room and started to fit and hallucinate. I badly bruised my hands and nose. Tim started ringing people from my phone and got Dean round, not happy Tim tried calling my family to embarrass me and deleted my inbox. Eventually him and Dean got my on the bed, then I threw up loads and was eventually ok, went out for few hours in end, Tim turned nice, even danced with me and hugged me in club, yet end of night was flirting with others again yet denied it.
He has a short time now to leave his ex and move in here [lodger has finally took hint and gone by the way], so if hes not messing me about he has a few weeks to prove it.
Know reading this doesnt sound ideal, but can't explain how deeply I feel on here. I love him, and he supposidly does me, we are just very different people and need to meet in middle, have a lot to give in different ways. Time will tell.....
Briefly, got a small bonus at work, £500, for the whole prior to Xmas.
Xmas I spent at my mums, nice to see family, but cut short to spend time with Tim, who had been in hospital with malnutrition, saw him the first night then he fell out with me new year as my presents for him were wrong, honest mistake but he was cruel and made me take things back, considering I didn't have to buy a thing, its about whats from the heart, and made a mistake with shops.... nevermind hey.
New Year, he acted like I was a stranger and says he cant show feelings in public, yet doesnt show them in private either, and was happy enough to dirty dance with others and even go as far as talking about having sex with a guy he just met.....
Birthday, night before when I planned to go out, everyone cancelled on me, so was just me and Tim, he didnt want to go out, then changed his mind, so Dean came out, however I misjudged what I was doing, and collapsed in my front room and started to fit and hallucinate. I badly bruised my hands and nose. Tim started ringing people from my phone and got Dean round, not happy Tim tried calling my family to embarrass me and deleted my inbox. Eventually him and Dean got my on the bed, then I threw up loads and was eventually ok, went out for few hours in end, Tim turned nice, even danced with me and hugged me in club, yet end of night was flirting with others again yet denied it.
He has a short time now to leave his ex and move in here [lodger has finally took hint and gone by the way], so if hes not messing me about he has a few weeks to prove it.
Know reading this doesnt sound ideal, but can't explain how deeply I feel on here. I love him, and he supposidly does me, we are just very different people and need to meet in middle, have a lot to give in different ways. Time will tell.....
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