Kian Drury

BMI

2012-01-23T01:17:00.001Z

Down to a touch over 26

Though that was using my belief I was still 86kg, I'm 84.5kg, which is about 13st4!

Wow

2012-01-22T01:53:00.001Z

Danny Mountain, fit straight porno star, just commented on my facebook status. Legend!!

Body size 18.01.2012

2012-01-18T23:44:00.001Z

Just to keep record... Not easy to tell on normal pictures

So....

2012-01-18T00:57:00.001Z

In total I'm 3 stone 3 lbs down since May.

My goal is now exactly one
Stone away. Hope I'll feel happy enough to stop then.

Feeling so ill all the time

Tuesday!

2012-01-17T15:02:00.001Z

Feel less crap today, bought chippy tea on way home last night, had less than a third and fell asleep. pretty much for nearly 12 hours, but feel brighter and all that what was wrong with my tongue etc seem to be healing up.

Had my "healthy" lunch and not starving or anything.

Fingers crossed will feel better as the week goes on.

Ouch!

2012-01-16T11:11:00.003Z

Just ate for the first time in 40 hours and it was painful and slow! Needed something though as I can't concentrate and felt dizzy on and off.

That weigh in last night was wrong - I am actually 13 stone 6. Good in a way, but do not feel healthy.

Been to Sainbury with some of the money I have left from not going out, and tried to do well. Got a healthy sandwich to take the edge of and will have the rest as part lunch along with apples and water.

also bought Riveta, and some special K breakfast bars.

Will carrying on eating in a certain way this week, no bad foods and also dig out my gym kit post-thowing it on the floor pre Xmas when I needed to pack a travel bag.

Would be really nice to edge closer to 13 stone, but I may need to calm it down a bit. I'm sure I am causing more health issues than I am avoiding, and I have three months to sort myself out.

Must admit though, kinda nice to look in the mirror and think "god, that's what it used to look like when I was younger". Kinda missed my figure....... suppose all I really have to go is a little on my chin, a small amount now on my hips, and what seems tiny compared to last year's amount on my stomach, but I would say the latter is still about a stone's worth.

Help

2012-01-15T17:17:00.001Z

That is all :(

Pfff

2012-01-08T19:13:00.001Z

No matter how I try to run away, not hug back etc... I still feel the same.

Lights up the fucking room for me even when 10 meters away....

Happy New Year

2012-01-01T15:06:00.001Z

Had an excellent night for various reasons <3

Also realised... I am still in love but I don't want to be together. Like many I initially fall for, turns out to be a habitual liar and attention seeker.

Can't help who you love... But can what I do about it.

Poorly Sick

2011-12-27T18:10:00.001Z

Well spent all night and all day either in bed or on the loo. No great and a shame as means spending less time with my family .... Oh well they understand.

Still missing the usual suspect. Not heard a single thing....

Christmas

2011-12-26T01:08:00.001Z

Massive surprise present off my parents. Not allowed to put on facebook though due to my sister not getting hers till tomorrow. However pretty much changes my life for the next three months.

Really wish I received one certain text. But I didn't and can't change that now. So looking forward to what the next few months bring me.

Merry Christmas

2011-12-25T01:18:00.001Z

To one and all and especially the one I love

xxxxxxxxxxx

Christmas Eve Eve Eve

2011-12-22T21:42:00.001Z

I'll never get bored of looking at you, talking to you or holding you.

@:-)

Can't help but laugh....

2011-12-20T01:47:00.001Z

.... Last boyfriend appears to have been unceremoniously dumped and one before is with an almost equally older guy.

I'm having a thousand percent more fun than them - and I'm holding back! If I can get someone out my head and sort one issue I'm worried about separately then being 31 is gonna be one big laugh :D

Facebook

2011-12-20T00:11:00.001Z

More and more pictures keep turning up from that party lol.

In each one, looking fucking gorgeous... Sigh. There's a song about this ain't a crush.... Hate when a song is on the tip of your tongue!

Nope!

2011-12-19T16:03:00.002Z

Still not worn off - just saw a photo smiling back at me and felt awful...... and its after I had gone too. *sigh*

Age

2011-12-18T20:39:00.001Z

Funny Shane says he thinks I'm 25 then Kev says something very similar. Can't always tell if the latter is taking the piss though hmmm. Ah well, I do look a bit younger without the heavy facial hair and weight.

All a matter of perspective.

Thought I'm not bothered as I like being 30 (soon 31) as I've been having such a brilliant time. Would explain why I keep pulling 20 to 25 year old ha ha

Vodka

2011-12-18T18:53:00.001Z

And assorted other fruity drinks were not my ultimate friend last night.

Drank far too much.

Was fine with him all night. First time I'd seen him since. Was funny, made me laugh. The usual with him tbh.

Then right towards the end I just looked across room at him and my heart sank. Couldn't stop crying. Aleks didn't know where to look or what to say. He already look mortified with me arriving with said guy.

Left to Scrum down and as soon as Steve H asked me how I was there I burst into tears again and really worried him.

Obviously been kidding myself about not feeling as I did. Unless I blame the booze.... That's a good option.

Weekend is here

2011-12-17T11:58:00.001Z

All wrapped up warm in my bed.

Going out twice tonight! One shin dig followed by Scrum. Action I should think then :)

Someone is statusless and inbox ignorant again. Makes me sad but reinforces what I have thought of late. Need people less fucked up than me... Not more :)

Latest rave review LOL

2011-12-14T19:57:00.001Z

"Wow our looking built up n thinner mr I saw you today"
And
"U looked hot though but shhh that's a secret"

Wednesday already

2011-12-14T09:42:00.002Z

Think I am at gym tonight, need to confirm with lickle [yet not so] Winson.

Had a nice night last night with Shane, though feel heavier for sharing two Sainsbury pizzas and garlic breads! Poor lad was tired from night before and slept for like 30 secs of the Captain America ending... but awwwwww how cute is he asleep?! LOL!

Bless him for saying he finds it hard to believe I am my age at times, I seem more like a 25 year old. That would be because I do not hang round with anyone my own age really! Not something I intend but just always seems to be the case. Not doing a creepy Aleks thing; it just seems to be the age people are when I go out and also have 21 to 27 year old usually come onto me too. Still seems strange to write people coming onto me. Guess I will have to get used to that again.

Also need to get some bastard smaller jeans. Nowt fits me! Grrr I sorted a few tops out, but the bottom half is severely lacking! Would be nice to have something for this Saturday as it is another birthday drink.... plus Scrum straight after. Put a bottle of vodka aside for birthday, plus £20 for the Scrum - usual supplies in hand - so should be a decent night!

Ha!

2011-12-14T00:55:00.001Z

Can feel my Stuart Alan Jones side coming back out...

Do You Not Know Who I Fucking Am almost said yet again to a lower class gay. Urgh, know your place. The gutter!

Unexpected

2011-12-13T12:25:00.004Z

One of my bessies is getting back with their ex-BF.

not something I would normally recommend, but quite possibly something they need to do. Obvious tension between them for ages and think it's because they wanted to be together deep down.

Best of luck to them! xx

Goals for New Year's Eve

2011-12-13T11:54:00.002Z

Well, I would love to reach the 13.5 st mark... I plan to get ultra-wasted this weekend so that may help towards some of it lol.

Been going to the gym about once a week, but I think (well already know) that I need to be going at least three times.

It is just after work, the rain and dark along with the offer of a lift home makes me think - fuck it! At least when Winson goes with me I have some goals to share and he shows me how to use many of the items I am unsure how to use... like I have never done like proper weights before I went with him. However I need to go other than the once weekly trip by him to Manchester from Blackpool..... if I need motivation, I should just think of all those naked dudes in the lockers... WELL WORTH THE PAIN!! =D

Balls (not Amazeballs)

2011-12-13T09:34:00.001Z

Due to my impromptu sleep yesterday evening, I managed to only sleep again after 2am.

At least in the meantime I had a nice chat with Ali ... funny who other people know! We all have the same opinion on Tim..... CUNT!

Sober

2011-12-12T23:10:00.001Z

Grrr why is it every time I'm sober, I'm still totally in love with Kev. Whenever I'm not I easily convince myself that I don't care!

I can't spend my whole life out of it though :(

Saturday Nights

2011-12-12T14:10:00.001Z

Despite the "fun" I am having at that venue [and oh so many times LMFAO]... I really need a break for a week or so.

My body hair is feeling rough and brittle and my skin is not too good. Long term chlorine = bad times!!

How things change!

2011-12-12T00:51:00.001Z

Once upon time I pulled Aleks.

Now I pull this?!

Weekend

2011-12-11T18:15:00.001Z

Bit mental as per

Xmas do... Fit guys... Very drunk them got off my face and to h2o. Can't moan I don't get sex.... Well cheered me up

More gym needed....

2011-12-10T15:58:00.001Z

... But not awful!

My Christmas Do

2011-12-10T11:20:00.001Z

It's apparently dress smart - fine I was doing - and black tie? Tut. Best see if I have one!! Very last min to tell me!

No village drinks for Jaedon's birthday now so looking forward to H2O instead ^_^

Facebook Observation

2011-12-10T00:58:00.001Z

People of lower social standing, looks and location shouldn't delete my comments!!

That is all.

Today in the news

2011-12-09T22:57:00.001Z

I am pro Europe. Very much so.

But this is the one time I stand aside my labour friends and agree for the first time with a Tory scumbag. We should never have to get our own budget agreed by the Union. It's a step too far.

:-(

2011-12-09T20:37:00.001Z

I'm relaxing, warm house, great weekend planned both days... But I really, REALLY miss you. You are only 15 minute walk... Seems like forever.

Nudge nudge

2011-12-09T19:43:00.001Z

Wink wink!

Amazing how two tommy tanks can lift your mood =]

ooopsidoodles

2011-12-09T12:51:00.001Z

Todays food so far has been Pepsi-Max, Aero, Pringles, Apple Pieces and various cups of tea....

Hardly healthy but YUM!!! About time I had something tasty and wasn't connected to a man's body ;-D

Gym!

2011-12-09T10:53:00.001Z

Well Winson can't go due to being out all night grrr! but nevermind, I shall go alone and hopefully loads of nice cock on show =D

Really must go, no excuses - I just got more Pringles

Hmmm

2011-12-08T23:56:00.001Z

Noticed change in distance... Looks like despite the weather some folk are doing Thursday club. Hmm I only just woke up from snooze.

Hope they (he) have fun.

Sunday Plans

2011-12-08T19:36:00.001Z

Well I'm seeing Mark for the 3rd time. He's great and all... Really fancies me LOL but I don't think he wants a relationship. Probably best as I still keep thinking of you know who.

Two Blogs!

2011-12-08T15:31:00.001Z

Just made one for my work!

A little petty....

2011-12-08T13:19:00.001Z

... but just unsubscribed from someone's updates I see as a rival. Though being less hung and cut, he barely is so :-D

Socialising

2011-12-08T12:55:00.001Z

Just a thought whilst on my lunch.... I always go to Thompsons and Cruz101 really. I should make more of an effort to go to the other bars for a few, especially before meeting up with larger groups.

Make more nice memories like below....

Sigh...

2011-12-08T12:31:00.001Z

Loads of important things to do .... So little will to do any of it. Just fed up!

No plans tomorrow night... I know where I would desperately like to be but I need to be invited : would never ask as that's not how I roll. Silly really as all these weekends that I am getting off my face I get the balls to ask all sorts and am getting pretty much everywhere! Oh what a strange mind I have.

Here I Go Again

2011-12-08T09:51:00.000Z

So I can see him commenting on other people's stuff and he hasn't answered anything of me.

Doesn't even matter I know, but still gets to me?! God..... I may not be as quite frankly mental as 2006/7 but I seriously need to get over this!! Just had a flash in my head of how I am going to feel when he gets a boyfriend.... GUTTED.

Joys of Grindr

2011-12-08T03:32:00.001Z

Hmmm sometimes when ya mates are randomly a lot closer ya just think: dirty cunt.

Amazeballs!

2011-12-07T18:37:00.001Z

I have installed the Blogger app and am doing this on my phone. So much easier!!

Despite My Plans

2011-12-07T15:16:00.001Z

.... I'd still drop everything for him to sit on my face!! lol!!

Last Night

2011-12-07T11:07:00.001Z

Had a lovely time with Mark... got to know him a bit better. Talked about his job and upbringing a little.

Had a Family Guy DVD so always good to know he has a sense of humour. Looks dead cute in glasses....

Had Apple TV but didn't know how to use it, so being the technical wizard that I am, I showed him. Well impressed. Yay for me.

was great to eat some actual home cooked food. His flat in Bombay House was bloody gorgeous. After my holiday next year, I want to start getting nice stuff to add to my house so I can begin to compare, that said he did have stuff from all over the world. I must say, the guy has great taste. Also, may be 39 [just] but he aint old - showed me pics of him out with mates, and they may look older than him, but they are all out in Thompson's and Cruz same as me!

Also got a lift home in his nice blue sports car. Though I did take my contact lens case I didn't go home he he.

Me December 2011

2011-12-06T14:54:00.001Z

Big Update!

2011-12-06T11:21:00.001Z

Can't believe I hadn't update this for so long!

Well a lot went on. Since before.....

Moved to Canal Street for a while with my friend Jonathan.   He moved out after a while to live with his fella at the time, so that gave me the chance to stay there but with a lodger, so lived with the lovely Toby. He bought his own place after Jonathan pushed for a renewed contract, so I got Alistaire in. OMG, what a mistake that was. Fucking idiot child, urgh! Well eventually, Jonathan wanted the flat back early, so I headed off to Trafford for a short while before heading back to Abito for a second time. Finally, I am now at Evans Street in a cute little terraced house, and been there almost a full year - not intentions on leaving.   Have a lodger called Greg, that I don't see that much so a good deal all round.

Relationshipwise, well that Michael bloke was a bit of a div from the posts below, and just a kid.   Saying that, in Canal Street, I have three boyfriends.   Ryan was 17, Mat was 17 / 18, and the prick Marc was 30something.   Whilst in Trafford, I got with Aleks, major mistake after moving him in. All he cares for is the Sauna, the attention of male company and getting drunk. For some reason I forgave him repeatedly, but my second trip to Gran Can, with friends this time [oh it was the second time btw!], showed how vile he was and I dumped him after 13 months whilst abroad. Couldn't take it any longer, and its the best thing I have done in years.

Since then, I found myself falling in love in a crazy and maybe silly way. Not something I intended, but I haven't felt this way over anyone since Gez in 2003. Just when you find someone so physically perfect, and their personality just clicks then.... well I can't help it. Been feeling like I have been losing my mind for nearly a month, obsessively thinking about him night and day. I know it makes me a proper freak, but in some ways it was just nice to know I am still capable of feeling that way after all the shit this year. I kind of accepted yesterday though that no matter how many times I say I Love You, buy flowers or do anything else... if it was reciprocated I would know. Asked round two nights then never again after saying how I felt. Maybe I should learn from this, but then again if I were to act any different, it wouldn't be me.

I am meant to go see a guy again tonight, he is older and I said never again, but he has a nice body, cute face and lives near the Village so can't be bad. I need to make sure that I don't think of him as second best though, just as a different option. It's really difficult though, but if I don't at least try I am going to stay one lonely person.

Weightwise, which was mentioned below, I managed to balloon with Aleks all the way up to 16 stone 9 lbs!   However since I dumped him in May 2011, I have managed to get myself down to 13 stone 9 lbs.   Not in the healthiest ways either, and I am sure its having a deleterious effect on my emotional state of mind too. another stone and half though and I shall be happy. Going to gym too and arms are good. Luckily having Winson go with me once a week helps me with my knowledge of machine etc.

and finally workwise, was made Maintenance Manager a few years ago. Been at my job now for almost 6 and a half years.

Blast from the past

2011-12-05T16:30:00.001Z

Has it been like 3 years since I did this thing? Jesus.......

Gym!

2008-12-09T13:27:00.002Z

Well Diet didn't really do anything, so have joined the Gym and start going this week!

Argh!!

Been A While Again.....

2008-11-28T09:36:00.002Z

Well, there has been loads to tell, but too much to write at moment, this can be just a small update.

Latest picture now attached.

Am sick of my weight, am cutting out bread for a week: am also looking at crash diets too

Drastic measures!!

All Change

2007-06-28T11:22:00.000Z

Been a while hasn't it!

Too much to say really, but I'll be brief, on my lunch!

Moved into a new smaller place but its City Centre and cheaper. So brill!

Got a new BF after leaving psycho Tim. Michael is 18 and well cute :)

I had a 5 week month with no money after blowing it all bank hol weekend. People from my past made me realise how much I'd grown up and how much they were still the same, and will never change.

Am growing my hair back, for now anyway.....

laterz xx

Me hairs gaaaaawn!

2007-02-04T02:12:00.000Z

Carson Dies :-(

2007-01-24T14:29:00.001Z

Update

2007-01-24T14:04:00.000Z

Well Tim and I should be living together soon, we just have masses of stuff on both sides money wise etc to sort out, he has the extra point of his physical health and sadly my mental health still isnt 100%, but I hope that we will help each other out.

He told me he may not want a BF after a few months and needs some space, but I hope he only thinks that out of stress, given that last week he said he loved me and changed totally, to a nice guy! LOL

We shall see

x

Do You like This?

2007-01-24T13:54:00.000Z

A whole 5 years or so, maybe 6 ago!

Current Fave Song

2007-01-24T13:46:00.001Z

Picture of Tim & I

2007-01-08T19:56:00.000Z

Catch Up

2007-01-08T19:31:00.000Z

Well since yesterday I am 26, hurrah.

Briefly, got a small bonus at work, £500, for the whole prior to Xmas.

Xmas I spent at my mums, nice to see family, but cut short to spend time with Tim, who had been in hospital with malnutrition, saw him the first night then he fell out with me new year as my presents for him were wrong, honest mistake but he was cruel and made me take things back, considering I didn't have to buy a thing, its about whats from the heart, and made a mistake with shops.... nevermind hey.

New Year, he acted like I was a stranger and says he cant show feelings in public, yet doesnt show them in private either, and was happy enough to dirty dance with others and even go as far as talking about having sex with a guy he just met.....

Birthday, night before when I planned to go out, everyone cancelled on me, so was just me and Tim, he didnt want to go out, then changed his mind, so Dean came out, however I misjudged what I was doing, and collapsed in my front room and started to fit and hallucinate. I badly bruised my hands and nose. Tim started ringing people from my phone and got Dean round, not happy Tim tried calling my family to embarrass me and deleted my inbox. Eventually him and Dean got my on the bed, then I threw up loads and was eventually ok, went out for few hours in end, Tim turned nice, even danced with me and hugged me in club, yet end of night was flirting with others again yet denied it.

He has a short time now to leave his ex and move in here [lodger has finally took hint and gone by the way], so if hes not messing me about he has a few weeks to prove it.

Know reading this doesnt sound ideal, but can't explain how deeply I feel on here. I love him, and he supposidly does me, we are just very different people and need to meet in middle, have a lot to give in different ways. Time will tell.....

Shameless

2007-01-08T19:30:00.000Z

New Boyfriend!

2006-11-22T22:20:00.000Z

Well it came totally of of the blue, but it is true... I am now attached!

I can't believe he actually likes me, I am beyond trying to understand it, I am just thrilled and hope it lasts.

My Head

2006-11-18T20:12:00.000Z

Sorry its been a while, been busy trying to make the month go by faster until I get paid, only 5 days to go.

Seem to have some guys interested at moment, see how they go.

Went out with Dean a few nights ago straight from work to Tri-Beca. We had several bottles of Rosé to celebrate him getting a winter job @ Ticketmaster. Was great to relax but I was totally out of it, and started crying at one point, I think over having my lodger living here.

I don't know if its because of a lack of sleep, or because as mentioned elsewhere on here.... same slippery mental slope returning, but I am becoming increasingly down and paranoid. I feel like people are plotting against me at work, and all the meetings when they speak quietly are to exclude me. I know I am probably being dead silly, but I can't help these feelings. My job means so much to me, I want to get things just right so the business does well, and in the end I will do well too. I don't know what kind of bonus we will get at Xmas, I don't want or need to much, I just want enough to enjoy the festive season and my 26th birthday on 07/01/07. Also need to pay all my bills etc off, about £1,000 does that, but we shall see.

I have my ways of checking things out, so I can calm down somewhat, just need someone to do something on my behalf tomorrow. As for the rest, shopping in my cupboard, a great guy in my arms and cash in the bank will make me happy.

On a lighter note, my Next order arrived, forgot it was coming, so I have a sparkly belt, a slightly sparkly black shirt and some trousers. Hopefully the trousers will double up to match my jacket for work suit - the last trousers were ruined. All on credit so I can afford to pay in installments!

Mwah x

Guaranteed to depress myself

2006-11-08T21:04:00.000Z

It's looking through pictures of myself 5 years ago, just seems yesterday. The only thing I truely want to change in my life is my weight,

I wanna be that size again! Effort isn't working, really need to push myself.

Can it happen twice?

2006-11-05T16:07:00.000Z

An outeverywhere.com forum gave me a thought to think about.

Is there such thing as love at first sight?

I voted yes. It has only happened to me once, and this is it.

I first walked into this bar in Grimsby on a Sunday with some odd balls I had met up with, and I just laid my eyes on this tall skinny lad. He was dressed in dark blue denim, had kinda bad hair thinking about it, but he had these eyes and smile. He was kinda ignoring his friends, but they weren't his real friends thinking about that too. I just stared down at him from the top seating area all night til he left. I never got him out of my mind and though we became friends, I couldn't cope not being with him, I tried so hard to be with him or block him out, and then I was so happy when we got together. It self destructed in the end - well he did it really, but I think high emotions, drugs and circumstances in his life caused most of it. My world fell apart, and I think it had a big part in what happened to my life late 2004, but I don't regret a second. Never will.

After all this time, I haven't met anyone as sexually compatible, personality, humour, music, tastes, those eyes, those feelings, that touch... but at least I know when I do feel that again, that the person will be right for me and I am prepared on how to act from past experience.

Either that or I long after the first til I die!

Re-thinking things

2006-11-05T14:57:00.000Z

Well how do I explain this... I will try.

I have been thinking about my life in Manchester, my friends, my job and so on. In general I can't complain, but its not all it should be. My brother may come and replace my lodger at the start of next year, so I will be focused in helping him create a stable new life. Then again he may not, and if he doesn't I need to ditch the lodger and move out myself. I may have the chance to go be someone else's lodger, a first for me, which would save me a great deal of money but I am unsure as to if that is certain. At least I see I do have some options, even if they are limited. I need to say a portion of whatever measly bonus I get a Xmas, it may come in handy, who knows I may go for a lower priced unfurnished place, all I am really lacking is a sofa, beds, fridge/freezer and a cooker. The rest I really have. I did have absolutely everything before but I wont go into that. Place would need to be outside city centre but close like I am now, I cant rely on public transport, or want that cost. Maybe I am better staying put.

Also, going on on Friday reminded me of who I am, I DON'T go out and stay out to make others happy, if I don't like someone it is for a good reason. When the people I liked weren't about anymore I felt uncomfortable and trapped. I like my gay bars, I like salt of the earth people, I like people who like my music, who are common and say shocking things, fuck people who don't like what I say or I do, those who tell me I can't manage my money when they have no clue what my life is like, those people who claim to be gay and proud but get bored of the Village and think its fun to go places you would get killed for kissing your man. Integration is bull shit, I am happy living my life in the Village, outside of work none of my friends are female, why should they be, Fag Hags are something you had at college and school when you were the only one grown up enough to know you are gay, I have met thousands of gay men now, and I would be happy if I lived in an all gay world. The only bad thing about the village is the lesbians, who truely turn my stomach, and the drunken straight women, thinking it their God-given right to go there, in our pubs and bars, pushing past us, spilling their drinks on us, hitting us with their unneccessary bags and burning us with their cigarette ash. Some of my friends too, are they just friends because I had no-one in Manchester and I grabbed what I could?

Feeling back to "normal" mentally, all these views and opinions are the ones I felt all the way to 2004, before self destruct. Does this mean I am heading the same way as before, to lose my mind and body to something unstoppable, or am I just picking up where I left off? My values and opinions are what they are. I am happy to be racist, sexist, homophobic against lesbians and so on. They are who I am, too many people claim to love me or like me for who I am here, yet try to tell me I am wrong on things.

Am I doing the same with my men? I am getting back to my oldself men-wise, which I am not ashamed about, I must have had about 7 since I split with Daniel. Some I have just used for sex, others I cared for, though they are stockier than I liked before, am I just making do with such men as I am bigger now myself? I liked stick thin guys, I still do but they don't like me. Sometimes I just feel I deserve better looking blokes?

Work is good I love it, but the pay is a problem. We dont get bonuses now, except at Xmas and GOd knows what that will be, if it is low it will realy mess up my plans and goals. At the moment I am scraping by, my lodger taking the piss for so long has set me back about a grand, but by Xmas and hopefully with a bonus I will be ok and paid up so I can chuck him out if need be. I would just surive. If someone I could stand moved in, my brother or Mr Right, or even both it would be great. Unless I get a payrise though, I won't be going anywhere quick. I may sort my money then try and pay for an I.T. and German qualifications starting next year. One to get better money at what I do, the later do finish what I started many years ago. I will also get one in Estate Agency or similar, and then right at the end I will do Spanish. I can always follow up with the Dutch and Italian after, that should all take me 10 years or so.

So many main points of this

* need more money,
* need to make the effort to make friends through my own means,
* need to get rid of lodger,
* need to stabilise my home life,
* need to find that guy, who is the all-round package,
* & renew my intellect

Catch Up

2006-11-04T17:55:00.000Z

Trying to remember what I have done now....

Well I took Dean out to San Rocco for his birthday meal and it was fantastic and well worth the money.

Went out straight from work last night, had a laugh for a few hours then it was 4 further hours of hell. If I don't like someone, then I just plain dont! Cant feel any other way no matter how they act towards me now. Its a shame, could have been could friends but I just dont like him.... Ended up coming home feeling ill and my throat still hurts from all those people smoking, bring on the ban!

Memories!

2006-10-29T16:03:00.000Z

Saturday Night

2006-10-29T15:28:00.001Z

OMG - how bad was Saturday? Meant to pop in work just for an hour, and ended up staying SEVEN hours til 7pm!

I got home and just slept for hours, Dean wouldn't come out so I gave up. In the end he agreed to come out, so I went out about 23:30, and we went to The Union, Hollywoods and my fave - Cruz 101.

I was very naughty, and went home with.... a chicken kebab, spicy chicken pizza and chip'n'cheese.

How naughty. Had a good time there though, loads of fit men out, not like they ever talk to me, even the mingers don't. I think a made a passing comment to an Estate Agent I recognised, a fit one, LOL, what must he think. Probably nothing!

Friday Night

2006-10-27T21:29:00.000Z

Well have had an ok day at work, not enough hours in the day, and I couldn't stay late as I had my hair done at 5.30pm. I left early at 5.20pm and still took til 6.50pm! Dan did a wonderful job as always, though I need to take him some more money tomorrow, gives me an excuse to pop into work though and get a few bits done.

Felt a bit sick this morning and tonight..... am hoping to go out tomorrow night, bit of disco dancing with Dean?

:-) Peace out!

Catherine Tate Season Three

2006-10-26T20:19:00.000Z

Just watched the first one, how funny is the Irish Mum of the gay man? "I bet he has a lovely cock" LOL

My Favourite Song is HERE

2006-10-26T19:56:00.001Z

I am a creature of the night, I haven't got the will to try and fight!

My day today....

2006-10-26T19:45:00.000Z

... well its been a good one I think. I won today! At least I feel I did.

It's a good job I brought a camera home from work to do David, my lodger's, photos. Jonathan [www.jonathanwelford.co.uk] showed me his blog site on here, so I did my own and added pics of my home.

Have tons of sales properties to put on, City Centre stuff, as well as some of the new [to me] North Manchester ones. Also putting stupid rentals on, well their pics, and all the windows displays. That and referencing pain in bum tenants who ALL need guarantors and dealing with the ultra-difficult landlords! Sorting all the new PC's out each day too, again and again, so busy each day, but still managing to stay up-beat and try to have a laugh with my colleagues. Its payday tomorrow, not like I will have much money left for me, but I will be able to relax.

Am quite tired, only got to sleep after 01:30 today, was online for ages, then went a watching DS9 videos in bed. My own fault really? Ah who cares....

Gonna go talk to my sexy ex on MSN and put a few properties on remotely...... bye!

Where I Live

2006-10-26T18:43:00.000Z

On the way in... The entrance to my apartment in Waterloo Park

When you come in, I have my hall with calendars and a random picture

My bathroom...

Then my lodger's room [am sure many of you recognise it?]

My room [aren't you privileged?]

My Living Room

and my kitchen, clean for once.... God bless Worklink cleaners!

I know its night time, but this is what you see from where I am.

Thats Beetham Tower in the Centre, with Premier Travel Lodge, Spectrum, The Edge, No1 Deansgate, Portland Tower and Arndale.
More to the West, is Strangeways, the Green Quarter, Skyline Central and CIS

and my way in... via a small path through hedged/tree lined walkway.